So 19 years ago, there was this album that came out. Me being a fan of the artist, I of course got the CD.
Great album!
And there was this one track that completely sucked me in. Not gently pulled me – it sucked me in completely, swallowed me in one bite and it still does to this day.
The artist is Italian, and I´m “a bit” biased to that language, like no other. For me it goes straight into my soul, it is so melodic even when people just speak it, and I´ve been listening to Italian music/songs since a very young age.
Ages ago I bought cassettes, “Learn Italian” as well. So I know a little bit, and being a linguist who also has studied Spanish for 3 years, combined with English most of my life, it is fairly easy for me to pick it up. In the mid eighties there was an Italian police series; La Piovra, that I watched religiously and also learned a lot of Italian from. But languages are like that, if you don´t use it you loose it.
Anywho.
The little booklet that came with the CD had the lyrics to all the songs, both in Italian and in English, very well translated, so once I managed to get to the lyrics and read them, I could also understand the lyrics completely. Or rather, what the words meant. Because the lyrics are not your regular cut and dry linear story kind of song.
(I can listen to a song for a very long time and not even hear the words because the music and arrangement just takes over..)
I hear – and feel the ocean in this song. Not because it is part of the lyrics, but the way the song is built. I compose songs as well, so this is an important part of my reactions to this song. I feel the waves, coming to the shore, moving back and forth, like a constant, and they vary in size, depending on where in the song they are. Every time I hear this song, it moves me with the same intensity. The only variation is how much tears come through my eyes. It´s beyond this world. Very very few songs have this impact on me.
As you will hear, there is a love story, of sorts, in the lyrics. And I have also always, since I first hear the song, felt this love, this connection, with the same intensity. It has made no “logical” sense. I have never attached it or connected it to any of the partners I have been with.
But who ever this is about – in the realm of my life, I have yet to meet. And I am so looking forward to that! I can sense it coming closer. (Could be wishful thinking, but hey – that works for me 🙂 )
Africa has pulled me for a long long time, many years – and of course she is also mentioned in this song.
I don´t have the CD with me cause it is with all my other stuff still in storage, and since I couldn´t remember the name of the song for years, I have been away from it for almost 7 years. And then it actually came back to me last night. By divine intervention. Not my doing. So it kept me awake most of the night. Listening to it. Living in it. Feeling it. The same intensity. The same pull….
So there are many unknowns, x factors in the song and my relationship to it. In my brain it does not make any sense, I cognitively can not put the dots together…
However…
This is not the meaning of Life… That we “have to” understand everything or being able to explain things so they make sense. To ourselves or others. That is not the reason we are here. Hence I don´t do “why´s”. I never ask “why” and I do not work with that word in any way. It is a word that makes no sense to me.
I have come to learn and realize that when I search for what I think is the “meaning” of X (what I think is the “why”), I lose it. The plot. Cause it is not for me to define. It is for me to show up and be open. Be curious. And to accept what is. Including when I don´t “get” it. Especially then.
So many things in this life are not meant to be understood. They are just meant to be accepted.
So for the past 27 years, I have been asking for the wisdom. To know the difference. Both with what is for me to just accept, and also for what is for me to change.
So what is the song, you may ask?
Il mistero dell ´amore, performed by Andrea Bocelli. Composed by Raffaello Di Pietro.
Thank you for the Music!
Mille grazie!
Lotta CBT Lifecoach 