Moving on

Malta…..

Our relationship started 16 years ago, I came for a 2 week holiday, to rest and get some new perspectives. Mainly about myself.

I got sun kissed, soaked up plenty of vitamins sea. Was mesmerized by the colours of the sea; deep blue, light blue and emerald. The palm trees draped with twinkle lights. The heat that took my breath away. The kindness of strangers, connecting with my fellow travellers in the 12 step rooms, or as I like to call them; my global family. 

It was a spiritual connection on a molecular level. Something I have never experienced before in any of my travels. And I’ve travelled a LOT. I didn’t want to leave. I felt so strongly that I’m supposed to be here. It made no sense, there was no logic. There was just this clarity.

So after 2 weeks I got on the plane that took me back to the Motherland, and I felt like I had a big hole in me, and I couldn’t stop crying on the plane. Have never experienced that either…

Landed at the airport in the north, and as I was walking through the airport, I was looking down at my feet thinking; each step I’m taking here, is a step in the opposite direction of where I want to go.

I came home to my house. Put down my suitcase, looked around my house and thought to myself; ”Who lives here? Who owns all these things, the stuff in this house?”. It felt strange. Foreign. Different.

I spent the coming weeks planning and taking actions so that I could relocate to Malta. It took 10 weeks. Then I was back. In Malta. No plan. But some new good people in my life there, particularly Linda, who took me under her wings and guided me in my new country. 

And little by slowly, I found new footing, life went on as it does. I had to start from the beginning, being a foreigner in a new country, and it took quite some time before I could do some work that I’m actually really good at – where my passion and talent lies (as well as years of studies and practise).

I started doing that part time, going in and out of employments, in order to sustain myself. Out of necessity, not interest.  Met some fantastic people along the way in some of these places.

For the past 3 years I have been able to be completely self employed, no side gigs to pay the bills. It has taken over a decade  to get my name out there, to build a client base that now recommends me to people in their lives in various ways. People on 3 continents and in 15 countries, so far. Yes I work online as well, since the past 6 – 7 years or so.

And I am deeply grateful for that.

I have sharpened my instruments and upped my game, continued to study and learn and grow, as a professional as well as a person. They go together in that regard. And my growth game is fierce! My recovery runs deep. And that makes me even better at what I do in my work.

New projects are coming up later this year. New collaborations, new connections. Exciting!!

And in the spirit of new…. I am now also leaving Malta. Moving out.

Onwards and upwards. New views, new energies and just new…. most. Same but different. Something I’ve been wanting to do for many years. And now it’s possible. Through hard work, dedication and conscious design. By me. Walking my talk.

I will still come to Malta. Frequently. But I have the same strong sense as when I left my Motherland; My time here is done. It is time to move on, which I will – in gratitude.

The only constant, is change. 

And change…. Comes through action only.

Life…… Goes on.